Recently I taught a Yoga Therapeutics course at Kripalu and it was wonderful. The students were incredibly receptive to the teachings and I felt a very strong heart-connection with them. After the course, being in high spirits, I did what I often do in the summer after teaching – I took a “victory ride” on my bike through the beautiful Berkshire Mountains.
I was so high on life I honestly do not remember pedaling. Something greater than myself was doing the work. All I remember is the feeling of the summer late afternoon breeze on my face, the smell of the farmland, the heat of the sun, and the beautiful summer light cast upon the colorful hills of green pastures and fields of multi-colored wild flowers all around me. It was mesmerizing. My senses were alive. I saw everything as if in bright “HD” clarity. When passing some very large cows, I felt a connection with them, as though I knew the experience of “cow-ness”. I had a feeling of love and connection with everything.
Then an insight arose. I was happy because I had served something greater than myself and gave it my all. There was no residue left behind. I was sincerely pleased with myself. I consciously acknowledged myself for the good work I did, not in an egotistical way, but in an authentic way.
All too often when I look at myself, my habit is to judge and become self-critical. I think we all do this at times, which is normal. But judgement and self-criticism is related to a sense of lack and not being good enough. This is one of the symptoms of perfectionism. You set unreachable goals for yourself that leave you […]