Health is crucial for a positive experience of life. It’s amazing how when I don’t feel well or I’m in physical pain, my whole outlook on life goes down the tubes. I’ve had a slight headache on and off for the last few days. I wouldn’t say I’ve been depressed. But my world view for the last few days has been dim at best. Just today my headache lifted, and my hip felt stronger. I had a great swim at practice tonight and all of a sudden, I was happy again. The Tantric teaching here is that the nature of the human heart is freedom. And the nature of freedom is joy. Whenever we experience a release from pain and suffering, there is joy. When you stop hurting, something else arises. That something else is joy. It’s just how it is. This movement from suffering to joy is profound and fills me with awe and wonder each time. It’s like I forget that life can be fun when I’m not feeling well. Then I feel better physically, and suddenly I have the strength to deal with my life. I have energy to post a positive perspective in my mind. Ahhhhhh, the pulsation. Until next time! Sweet dreams.
For those who may not have heard, I had a total hip replacement in January of this year. Although the healing is going well, I still have weakness and pain during certain movements like lunge pose with my right leg forward. During a recent physical therapy session, I was working on a lunge exercise while holding a ten pound weight in my hands. It was a very challenging exercise for me and I must have been making a strained face, pursing my lips, and slouching forward with my shoulders when I heard my PT say, “Lift your torso and upright yourself, Todd.” There was something about the way the phrase, “Upright yourself, Todd” sounded that struck a chord deep in my heart. When I lifted my chest and “uprighted” myself, the pain in my hip went away! With shoulders back and my abdominal core engaged, the strength in my hip returned. The pain dissolved and I felt free again.
Since my surgery, the healing process has taken place in stages. At first, everything seemed to heal quickly and within six weeks I was back to most of my normal daily activities, including biking, swimming, and teaching yoga. Then the healing process seemed to slow down and for the last several months it’s been painstakingly slow. Although I’m 90% healed, the last 10% has been an uphill battle. My surgeon told me that because of the nuanced demands of yoga that I’ve put on my hip, the healing is taking longer than some. Total healing can sometimes take one to two years.
Slowing down is not one of my strengths. I have a lot of enthusiasm for what I do. But after this PT session, I had the […]